I know I don’t post that often here, but I have just had a terrible day, and I don’t really know where else to vent.
In the ER today we had 3 codes, and one code grey, and I was one of the first at bedside for all 4. Only the code gray survived. Two of the codes were under the age of thirty. My arms are sore from compressions, I barely landed that last EJ line, and I find myself physically, mentally, spiritually, and emotionally exhausted. And it is midterm time… I need to take an online quiz for my 4500 Epidemiology class tonight, and I got off my 13 hour shift to study another 3 hours for it… only to find that the quiz is unavailable because of server difficulties at this university. I have 3 more midterms in the next 4 days, and I know I haven’t studied enough to be satisfied. I have seen my girlfriend of 5 years for approximately 3 hours in the last month. I decided to look up my degree audit and transcript for a little inspiration and motivation as to how I have really worked for this… and I am not impressed. I am giving everything I have for this goal that I am sure you all share, but today sucked… and I need to vent. When the code alarm went off for the fifth time today I nearly cried… and then it was because a 19 year old ‘chest pain’ patient’s boyfriend wanted a sandwich…
I needed to vent, and I don’t know any other place that could understand this sort of crazy existence.
Well, right after posting this the server issues resolved and I got to take the quiz last minute. Got a 95. (and I got an A on my paper and an A on my molecular Cell bio midterm apparently… both of which I was convinced I had failed)
Karma wins.