Hi. I’m Jay,
I’m currently working on a DIY post-bac and just recently completed a full year of biology (bio 1 & 2). I have been working full-time as a applications developer for a large corporation in Pittsburgh, where I was hired just after completing my CS master’s program back in 2013. I started work just the Monday after graduation and dove head first into the workforce only, after 2-3 years, to find out that this isn’t what I want. So through many other experiences and attempts at finding a new career path while working, I’ve landed upon medicine for a number of reasons and I’m extremely excited to make this journey.
Here’s my issue: It doesn’t feel real yet and I don’t feel like I’m doing enough.
I’ve always been the type of person that likes to floor the gas pedal once I know my destination. However, I don’t want to do too much and lose control and become distracted. So I started slowly with Bio 1 & 2 at a community college here and I passed both with A’s. That really boosted my confidence and I enjoyed everything about the class. Now, I want to step on the gas and go back to school full-time, start volunteering, shadowing and working in healthcare. But, because of bills, debt, and living expenses (I’ve been consciously working on paying off debt as fast as possible), I don’t feel I can leave my full-time job yet to be a full-time student, but I am 29 and would like to get everything on track as soon as I can. I know that when I get [there], I’ll get there, but I’m starting to feel like work has become a distraction now and it’s starting to reflect in my performance. I think I’m just having a hard to accepting that all I can do is take one or two or three classes a semester and work. I know, at some point I will need to ramp it up, but I am I doing enough now? I don’t want to get ahead of myself, but I don’t want to fall behind in anyway if there’s room to get ahead.