Nahani,
Each week, almost every other day, you post the same thing. You got a C, or a B or a D, you’ve repeated classes, and keep telling yourself that you are not worthy.
Today, you compared yourself to someone else who gets or got an A.
I worry about your self-esteem bashing and how that has to affect you. Machinating every week about what to do, how you did, where to go, what you’re doing wrong, is all going around the root issue.
Anyway, you already know my thoughts and my concern for you. I hope you find it within yourself to get the real help you need. I don’t for a second believe it’s that you’re not smart enough; it is the “other” thing entirely.
/hugs