I am going back to school this spring to start my journey towards medical school. I left school my freshman year after i was sexually assaulted, being a gay male, I only told my close friends and didn’t report the assault. I became really depressed and lost all drive.
I left college and my gpa fell drastically. My parents were not helpful at all, they asked why i became depressed all of a sudden and finally i told them what happened. They told me that they could’ve lived without knowing that happened to me. Then proceeded to tell me I was going to hell for being gay. I attempted the next day.
I don’t have major depression, I just didn’t want to live in that moment especially after dealing with sexual assault, the guilt that comes along with that and my parents not accepting me fully.
I went to in-patient for two weeks and became inspired. I had the worst psychiatrist, he didn’t care about his patients and seemed to only want a paycheck. I met a lot of people and saw them all at their worst times, a time where they need someone who actually wants to be there for them. At that moment I knew I wanted to be that person, I have always been fascinated with mental health and working towards breaking that stigma especially in the LGBT community.
So my question after putting my story out there is should I tell medical schools about the reason I want to be a doctor and my journey to getting back to school.
I know I could’ve worded some of this better, but it’s just a hard topic to talk about